my own bother me but on other people i think they’re kinda beautiful?

even when they’re ugly the depth of emotion and the struggle that they represent when they’re scars, old pale scars, is just really gorgeous and endearing to me 

someone who doesn’t intentionally and maliciously go out of their way to hurt someone else 

It feels so strange thanking someone for thanking you but truly and honestly thank you. I get nervous sometimes that I might be unintentionally making things worse or extrapolating pre-existing issues and when I don’t know things I makes sure I don’t try to act like I do so it’s just really nice to hear that I’m not accidentally fucking this up and someone has gotten something, anything, beneficial out of it. 

//kisses 

i mean there’s no incorrect way to masturbate and what works for me may not work the same way for you 

i found some things that might help give you ideas if you’re interested

• http://goaskalice.columbia.edu/female-masturbation-optimization
• http://www.womenshealthmag.com/sex-and-relationships/masturbation-1

but really it’s dependent on you and your body’s reactions 

I JUST LOOKED UP PICTURES AND BURST INTO FUCKING TEARS OH MY GOD WHY IS THIS HAPPENING WHO PLANNED THIS WHY DID THEY WANT TO HURT ME

ALSO HE’S PLAYING GRANT IN A CIVIL WAR DRAMA?!?!?! WHAT THE FUCK I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M FEELING I’M JUST SOBBING 

make out with and that makes me so confused. and a whole bunch of people that i looked up to as a kid, turned out to be gay which seems like its totally irrelevant but it makes me feel like ‘what if im gay’ and then i have an existential crisis because am i gay or am i bisexual and if i am do i tell anyone do i have to or can i just make out with whoever i want like I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ABOUT ME RIGHT NOW

first thing’s first

if you don’t want a label, you don’t have to have a label 

if you want a label, whatever label you identify with is a-okay and you don’t have to tell anyone you don’t want to tell because that’s your motherfuckin label and you don’t owe anybody shit especially about something that personal. you share, you don’t share, it’s up to you. shit man, you don’t want to tell your parents if you identify as something? you don’t have to 

personally i feel constricted by identifications like that like they make me really stressed out because i feel like if i identify as bi i have to be the biest bi to have ever bi’d and be all equal opportunity bi or something liKE ‘I SAID I LIKE LADIES AND DUDES SHOULD I LIKE ALL THE LADIES AND ALL THE DUDES, NOE OF EITHER, WHAT IF I FIND MORE DUDES ATTRACTIVE THAN LADIES, WHAT IF I LIKE THE LADIES MORE BECAUSE THEY’RE PRETTY AND THE DUDES BECAUSE THEY CAN BENCH PRESS ME AHHH’ and oh man it feels like a lot fo work for me personally 

so i just 

flow with it

some ladies - would bang

some dudes - would bang

and i pop open a cold one and chill out, content in the idea that where i’m going i don’t need to categorize myself, but a lot of people, maybe yourself included, find a great deal of comfort in the idea of having a name for their orientation in which case i would suggest don’t try and rush into a commitment with an orientation title just yet

flirt with the orientation, take it on a few dates, go home to meet its parents, and if you feel comfortable, like this is the right orientation for you commit with the understanding that a) you did so on your terms for yourself in your best interest and b) it doesn’t have to be anyone else’s business 

it’s okay to feel confused and it’s okay to rediscover that you’re straight after you’re confused or newly discover that you’re bi or pan or many other names i don’t know or understand completely because there are a butt ton of things you can identify as it isn’t either or

but most of all be cool with you

drink some capri suns, explore yo’self, figure how you feel ‘bout people and things, there’s no rush

yeah man  dkhsfd you’ve made me feel so old but i’ll do my best 

oh

my god

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